Note - this is a stress rant. Enjoy.

I am officially going to die before I turn eighteen due to stress and general inability to cope with vast changes and responsibility.

Everyone I know is having 'The best senior year ever!!!'  HOW DID I MISS THAT SIGN UP SHEET?!??!?!?  It's either 'I have so much free time!' or 'Do you have a grad dress yet?' or 'My courses are so easy!' or, my personal favourite... oh, wait, no, I HATE THEM ALL, because they give me nasty headaches and pangs of jealousy.  I am taking the least amount of academic courses I ever have this year at a grand total of 8 (I took nine, maybe 10, in grades 10 and 11, respectively), and my extra-curricular is only soccer twice a week and music twice a week, but go right on ahead and slot in babysitting twice a week, grocery shopping, volunteer hours, cleaning, family stuff, lifeguard training, friends, and bathing, and I AM SO BAFFLED AT HOW I'M ALIVE.  And to top that pie of wonderful off, I have to look into cars, jobs, and universities.  Is there a way to hire a trained monkey to do half of this for me?  That would be freaking epic.  If anyone wants to get me that for my birthday next month, I would be willing to marry you (unless you're a girl, in which case.... you can pick something else).  Or, if the monkey thing doesn't work out, a cloning machine would be thoroughly welcome.  I can handle everything other than university and all that it encompasses, including cars, jobs, bursaries, scholarships, etc.....  just so you can tell the monkey seller so that I get the right one :-P

I've never been a note writer, but I have piles and piles of them to organize my thoughts now....  Note to Self #1:

UNIVERSITY -
 - Look into scholarships and bursaries
 - Figure out what you want to do at uni
 - Choose 2-4 uni's you like
 - Make an appointment with a counselor at your top university RE: $$, courses, and high-school prerequisites
 - Universities must be close so I can live at home
 - I don't want to have to sell a limb to get into one (though seeing as TWU is my top, I might have to)
 - And most importantly...

TRY NOT TO DIE BEFORE YOUR EIGHTEENTH BIRTHDAY DUE TO STRESS AND GENERAL INABILITY TO COPE WITH VAST CHANGE AND RESPONSIBILITY!!!!!!!!!!!!

If you have found some epic bursaries/scholarships (or any, really), pleasepleaseplease email them to me, even if you feel awkward doing so.  I will be eternally grateful, and you my prevent my premature death by helping me out here!!!